from website IDNTIMES which posted about 23 advices that we should remember when we turn 23th, I realize at this point I almost experience and did the 23 advices.
1. I realize that I will not alone till the rest of my life.
when I graduated from college, my relationship with all my friends suddenly faded away. we're not hanging out together anymore, we're rarely messaging with each other. My friends have a new friends from work and I just don't have it. Because I do my legacy to run my family business. At that moment there are always be some other people who will accompany us. so, it's true that we will not alone till the rest of life.
2.You don't have to chasing your dream at this point.
Again, it is true. I have a dream to start a new life abroad, start my new career away from home, being independent by my own in others country. But at this moment in 2018 I realize that my dream can wait. Even I already put that dream on my list that I should done on 2018, but eventually I just let my dream wait again. Because important tasks and duties in front of me become my priority for now.
3. Everyone had felt lost.
I felt lost a lot in my life. Lost mean a lot of duties to do but we can't do it. our heart and our mind at some point are goes to other places. And suddenly we felt confusing and depressed. what I did when I get lost is take a deep breath, take more time to rest at day, mostly sleeping then take more time to think when it's night. For sometime my life turn into a bat. on the day i am sleeping, at night i am waking up. but it only takes a few days till I know what to do and start it over again.
4. you have a plenty of time of lose
everyone feel afraid of lose. but we are young, lose is okay. I lose so many times. when I applied for scholarship abroad I lose because of my toefl or Ielts score not enough to get the scholarship or I lose for applied scholarship because I missed the deadline. When I missed the deadline I felt disappoint of my self, mostly because I couldn't priority the application deadline and there are so much else that I have to do and done especially at work. And then I missed it, I lose it, and I have to make my dreams wait again. But yet, there are still a plenty of time.
5. someone will love you again
when I turned 22th, for the first time I had a boyfriend. Suddenly I just felt in love with him, because he always there when I needed friends the most. when my family ask me when will I get married, he convincing me that there is time for it and he makes me laugh at my problem. But when he missing, I felt nobody could ever love me, until I realize there a a dozen of friends who love me for who I am. Even they might not love me as a women or a couple, at least they love me for who I am and that what the most important for me. Love will come when the time brings the right person to us.
6. you will love yourself again.
After all the failure and the disappointed of myself, I did found out the way to love myself again. And again it is because my friends convincing me that I just need to be who I am and everybody loves me for who I am. Even when with me there are always a messed up things I made but we always able to laugh on it.
7. you can set your own boundaries
as the person who built a high fortress to protect my self from getting hurt, this is what I have been lived for the entire life. And it's time to take the fortress low and be open up to people around me. so they can understand and sees me for who I really am.
8. you will not fully unsupported
there are always people who support me once I open up to them. My family support me, my friends support me, even the stranger support me when I told them my problem.
9. feeling disappoint on yourself means you could be better
yap it's true. look up I already tell you
10. It is not your job to live in other people dream
yes it is not my job but when it comes to legacy that means it is my duty. Legacy is not an easy responsibility
11. it's okay to say no
it was the easiest part when it goes to everyone else include my family. but it was the hardest part when it goes to my beloved friends a.k.a best friend
12. you have to tell what you want
already told on point 7
13. stop feeling ashamed
dude, I am a messed up person and I don't feel ashamed of it. #lol
14. my body are not 17
I feel horrible about this because with all this messed up I still have to life healthy. It sucks but it's true. I already felt aging skin on this age, it is horrible.
15. you may more charming then you can imagine
the fact that someone could love me and feeling crush on me may be the only fact that I was charming without I realize it. But when I am a confident person. I know I am charming #lol
16. you are not an adult and you may have not grown up yet
I still love playing games, still thinking about playing and playing and yes, besides all the duties I am still just a child.
17. you have to take a rest
I take a rest when I get lost
18. losing friends are a common things
it's time for me to say no. it's not common. at this age and at this time. friends is the only things we need to survive. trust me. you have read all the 17 and there always be a friends who help me to survive
19. you will leave people behind you
I did not leaving people. they leaving me. But I don't hate them for leaving me. they have their own life and I respect it. Once I leave people behind me, eventually I will always come back to them.
20. stop compared everything except for motivation
yes, everybody has their own life cycle, but you see you neighbor garden seems greener than yours and sometimes feels jealous and I think that's okay. Because you don't know what they have been through either right?
21. everyone felt broken
look and see my last post and you can see how broken I am.
22. everyone felt terrified
I felt terrified for being independent and go out from my lovely home. And I still terrified, but still living overseas is the only dream I always wanted.
23. life is like a roller coaster
last but not least because life is a mad and crazy and messed up #lol
sometimes we could felt very happy then very sad is a normal things. trust me, normal brain goes like that. if your not feeling very happy then feeling very sad then you may be a bipolar (kidding, LOL)
so as you can read it. I have been through all the 23 advices and applied it and still my life are messed up, lost, broken, mad, and crazy. because it is what it is. and it is life.
I rather felt all this 23 then died by my self
1. I realize that I will not alone till the rest of my life.
when I graduated from college, my relationship with all my friends suddenly faded away. we're not hanging out together anymore, we're rarely messaging with each other. My friends have a new friends from work and I just don't have it. Because I do my legacy to run my family business. At that moment there are always be some other people who will accompany us. so, it's true that we will not alone till the rest of life.
2.You don't have to chasing your dream at this point.
Again, it is true. I have a dream to start a new life abroad, start my new career away from home, being independent by my own in others country. But at this moment in 2018 I realize that my dream can wait. Even I already put that dream on my list that I should done on 2018, but eventually I just let my dream wait again. Because important tasks and duties in front of me become my priority for now.
3. Everyone had felt lost.
I felt lost a lot in my life. Lost mean a lot of duties to do but we can't do it. our heart and our mind at some point are goes to other places. And suddenly we felt confusing and depressed. what I did when I get lost is take a deep breath, take more time to rest at day, mostly sleeping then take more time to think when it's night. For sometime my life turn into a bat. on the day i am sleeping, at night i am waking up. but it only takes a few days till I know what to do and start it over again.
4. you have a plenty of time of lose
everyone feel afraid of lose. but we are young, lose is okay. I lose so many times. when I applied for scholarship abroad I lose because of my toefl or Ielts score not enough to get the scholarship or I lose for applied scholarship because I missed the deadline. When I missed the deadline I felt disappoint of my self, mostly because I couldn't priority the application deadline and there are so much else that I have to do and done especially at work. And then I missed it, I lose it, and I have to make my dreams wait again. But yet, there are still a plenty of time.
5. someone will love you again
when I turned 22th, for the first time I had a boyfriend. Suddenly I just felt in love with him, because he always there when I needed friends the most. when my family ask me when will I get married, he convincing me that there is time for it and he makes me laugh at my problem. But when he missing, I felt nobody could ever love me, until I realize there a a dozen of friends who love me for who I am. Even they might not love me as a women or a couple, at least they love me for who I am and that what the most important for me. Love will come when the time brings the right person to us.
6. you will love yourself again.
After all the failure and the disappointed of myself, I did found out the way to love myself again. And again it is because my friends convincing me that I just need to be who I am and everybody loves me for who I am. Even when with me there are always a messed up things I made but we always able to laugh on it.
7. you can set your own boundaries
as the person who built a high fortress to protect my self from getting hurt, this is what I have been lived for the entire life. And it's time to take the fortress low and be open up to people around me. so they can understand and sees me for who I really am.
8. you will not fully unsupported
there are always people who support me once I open up to them. My family support me, my friends support me, even the stranger support me when I told them my problem.
9. feeling disappoint on yourself means you could be better
yap it's true. look up I already tell you
10. It is not your job to live in other people dream
yes it is not my job but when it comes to legacy that means it is my duty. Legacy is not an easy responsibility
11. it's okay to say no
it was the easiest part when it goes to everyone else include my family. but it was the hardest part when it goes to my beloved friends a.k.a best friend
12. you have to tell what you want
already told on point 7
13. stop feeling ashamed
dude, I am a messed up person and I don't feel ashamed of it. #lol
14. my body are not 17
I feel horrible about this because with all this messed up I still have to life healthy. It sucks but it's true. I already felt aging skin on this age, it is horrible.
15. you may more charming then you can imagine
the fact that someone could love me and feeling crush on me may be the only fact that I was charming without I realize it. But when I am a confident person. I know I am charming #lol
16. you are not an adult and you may have not grown up yet
I still love playing games, still thinking about playing and playing and yes, besides all the duties I am still just a child.
17. you have to take a rest
I take a rest when I get lost
18. losing friends are a common things
it's time for me to say no. it's not common. at this age and at this time. friends is the only things we need to survive. trust me. you have read all the 17 and there always be a friends who help me to survive
19. you will leave people behind you
I did not leaving people. they leaving me. But I don't hate them for leaving me. they have their own life and I respect it. Once I leave people behind me, eventually I will always come back to them.
20. stop compared everything except for motivation
yes, everybody has their own life cycle, but you see you neighbor garden seems greener than yours and sometimes feels jealous and I think that's okay. Because you don't know what they have been through either right?
21. everyone felt broken
look and see my last post and you can see how broken I am.
22. everyone felt terrified
I felt terrified for being independent and go out from my lovely home. And I still terrified, but still living overseas is the only dream I always wanted.
23. life is like a roller coaster
last but not least because life is a mad and crazy and messed up #lol
sometimes we could felt very happy then very sad is a normal things. trust me, normal brain goes like that. if your not feeling very happy then feeling very sad then you may be a bipolar (kidding, LOL)
so as you can read it. I have been through all the 23 advices and applied it and still my life are messed up, lost, broken, mad, and crazy. because it is what it is. and it is life.
I rather felt all this 23 then died by my self
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