Think and Dream

When it comes to new year,  It will also comes with many new question But most importantly is what you want to spend your next year with.  It is very important question because death is certain but life is a choice. So, what kind of life you want to live.  Because the life you live is the most valuable investment you make for yourself. And have you done enough? Or you're just playing a game all along and getting drowned in a useless and meaningless lifestyle that you'll eventually regret.  It doesn't matter how you spend your new years eve. It doesn't matter who you kissed when the clock ring 00.00 on new years eve.  What Matters is how you'll gonna spend the next 24 hours in the next 365 days.  Because eventually if you can waste one night then you can also waste a lot of nights that's coming.

I can't believe I am at this phase right now. I can't believe that having a good memories can be painful. This things are already inside my head, and I hate it for wanted to keep it, I hate it when I repeat those memories inside my head like a movie clip. It's like a heroin to my brain.  The painful part is my brain knows that this things only exist in the past time. Nothing can bring those joyful memories back to reality, because life is moving forward and what await me in the future is lot of new memories with new people.  I want to end this addiction thought about what have happened and what to expect. Saying goodbye to pain is easier than saying goodbye to joyfully life that ever existed. And to every person that have made me happy.  This is the hardest part. Keeping all good memories without capability to maintain it, it's like holing a Pandora box that ready to explode. Erase all of good memories means empties and creating a huge hole inside our heart. Will defini...